I love the idea of using our gifts and talents to “create like our Creator.” Creation is powerful and reflective of God Himself so there is a strong connection that comes from this form of worship. It is good but, as with all good things, it can become an idol that consumes time, energy, and resources.
During this project, I have had to take breaks due to having a new baby boy, working at a middle school, helping to start a new church, and just the general busy-ness of life! Through all of this, I believe that God has continually called me back to the creative process of this album and the dangerous nature of it’s subject matter: spiritual warfare. It has been a burden to me at times but I felt [and still feel] God has called me to do it. At the risk of sounding like a cliche brooding musician, I admit that I can become so introverted and focused on the project at hand that it becomes an obsession. I begin to neglect others around me as well as God by directing my thoughts and concentration on lyrics, notes, chord progressions, and musical creativity/excellence. I am sure the enemy delights in the irony that, while working towards my calling of making a “spiritual warfare” album, he can see I have lost focus of God, family, and community. The enemy wins if it ends like this but God has proven Himself stronger!
God’s voice has been steady and constant in drawing me to Him in my creative wanderings. He has frustrated me in the creative process and reminded me that music will never fulfill me. He has reminded me that He will determine the amount of success and fruit that these songs will have – NOT my effort, striving, or hard work.
I believe that God has plans for this project to lead people to Him, inspire courage in the hearts of His people, and push back the darkness! I ask for your prayers as I keep priorities straight and labor over some of the final lyrics/music. Pray for God’s Spirit to breathe life into it as Fiat Lux comes to it’s completion!